Expendable's Labyrinth of Dreams

[Expendable]

Welcome
to the
Labyrinth of Dreams

Caution: From the Outside, it may be impossible to tell the daydreams from the nightmares.
Enter at your own risk!

About Me

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I've lost count of how many well-meaning lectures I've gotten from complete strangers. "Nobody is really expendable" - heh.
I've been scolded too. Some were nicer than others.
Psychoanalyzed: Poor self-esteem. Looking for attention. Angst. Depressed.
I've even been labeled "emo" and "drama queen". Don't bother looking - I don't cut.
Few bother to ask. Most I'm sure would just like to keep well out of reach.

There are some unpleasant realities in life. Sometimes sacrifices have to be made. Appeasements. Adjustments. Policy shifts. Acceptable losses. Collateral damage. You understand, don't you? You have to break a few eggs to make an omlet.

I hate that cliche. Worn out from all the movie villians spouting it - and in real life just someone trying to separate themselves from an uncomfortable choice.

Of course, it would be better if it was 'certain' eggs that got broken instead. You know the ones. One of 'those'. The ones who don't quite fit in. The problem cases. The 'unfortunates'. The ones you're never quite comfortable around. The freaks.

Very pragmatic, if you had to make that choice.

And my fav part, the little pat on the head. "You do understand, don't you? It's all for the best."

Rule #1 - I'm not big on sharing details about my personal life. Deal with it.
Rule #2 - If you're here to score some imaginary point, get lost.
Rule #3 - This probably won't last long. Sorry about that.
Rule #4 - I'm not interested in dating, online or off.

Name - Just call me Expendable or Ex if that's more comfortable for you.

Hobbies - role playing, writing, Sketchup modelling.

Interests - Anime, fantasy, mysteries and science fiction.

Poems

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Metal and Plastic

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metal and plastic,
flesh and blood.
a heart that beats
to a digital drum.

monitors beep softly
as a surgeon recreates
what nature gave
and time abates.

as you reach out to touch me,
I wonder what you see?
the tatters of my flesh,
or the metal underneath?

Something Fun

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He sits behind a big oak desk,
Puffing on a pipe.
He says he’s going to help me,
Now isn’t that a fright?

For I have seen the picture
Sitting ‘innocently’ on his desk.
I wonder if his wife knows
That he likes to wear a dress?

He says he can make me happy,
As I sink deeper into my chair.
He wants to make me normal
- couldn't wait to get out of there!

He wants me to take these pills
Before dinner every night.
A week or two later,
Then everything should be alright.

The questions that he ask
Aren’t as pleasant as they can be.
“There’s no need to be offensive,”
So he keeps telling me.

“So stop asking me all those questions,
And just leave me alone!
I am not getting too damned violent!
Put down that stupid phone!”

I swear he will not be happy
Until he has me all alone,
Sitting in a padded cell,
So drugged that no-one's home.

So he left me for a moment,
An appointment next Saturday,
He brought golf clubs to the office
- I think it’s time I learned to play.

My legs aren’t too steady,
But for a few moments I can stand.
My first attempt was horrible,
But my next attempt was grand!

“It wasn’t my fault” I told him
As he put me back into my chair
I thought the window was open,
It’s really not that fair!

Seems he’s suddenly not so keen
To have me come around.
He’s sending me to see his friend,
Because suddenly he's going out of town.

I lose more psychiatrists that way.

The Labyrinth of Dreams

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Lost in the Labyrinth of Dreams
Chased by the Darkness that is me
By demons that snap mercilessly
So I stagger, going on.
And in the middle, to my surprise
Stood two mighty angels,
Guarding a place of Light.
Their glare at my approach,
Kept the demons' fangs at bay,
But when I tried to step through the door,
With spears they did bar the way.
I begged and pleaded,
But they stood there just the same.
Saddened, I began to turn away.
"Enter my child," I heard someone say,
And the angels bowed their heads,
At attention in silence stood.
So I stepped inside the place of Light
Where once only Darkness had ruled.
Light was all around me,
But one was brighter still.
"Am I dead?" I asked,
And I heard a laugh.
"Is this Heaven or is this Hell?"
The voice did answer "Yes,"
And handed me a shining key,
"Many doors will that open,
Many sights you will not wish to see,
But I'll ask you to remember
Not every door needs a key."
As I stood there all confused,
It spoke as it began to rise,
"Do not mistake it for your salvation,
But your way it may help you find."
Desperately I grabbed at it,
"Wait!" I did cry.
"Why did you risk coming here,
Where the Darkness has full sway?"
"Huddled in the deepest Dungeon,
For the Meanest of Crimes,
Tossed like a leaf in the mighty storm,
Still if you look deeply,
You may find a hint of Light."
So the Light did leave me,
And I watched it's awesome rise
Until the chilling howl of a Demon
Woke all from Light's brilliant spell,
And the chase began again.

[Pastor of Muppets]

Oooooh a dream world...

Nice!
(or indeed, not)

[Expendable]

Oooooh a dream world...

Nice!
(or indeed, not)

Yes....

[Pastor of Muppets]

:O

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[Expendable]

Lindsey Stirling's Master of Tides live performance.

[Expendable]

Just finished Terry Prachett's Raising Steam. It's another disc world novel about the first train being built in Ankh-Morpork. Lord Havelock Vetinari is all for the train, as it would be a major improvement over taking his carriage the long way to Überwald. Of course, it's not going to be that easy...

[Expendable]

Warmish day. Practically summer by Yorkshire standards.

[Pastor of Muppets]

Just finished Terry Prachett's Raising Steam. It's another disc world novel about the first train being built in Ankh-Morpork. Lord Havelock Vetinari is all for the train, as it would be a major improvement over taking his carriage the long way to Überwald. Of course, it's not going to be that easy...

You... read Discworld...?

o.o'

And Yorkshire?

[Expendable]

Lived in and arround Harrogate for four years. Summers were excuses to visit every possible ruined castle and cathedral we could get to. Fountains Abby was a big favorite of my Mom's. We'd also picnic at Crocodile Rock, across the road from Two Stoops.

And I'm a fan of Terry Pratchett. I'm also a fan of Robert Asprin's Myth series and John Moore - his "Heroics for Beginners" is a fun read if you're looking for something equally twisted like Discworld. Man knows how to fracture a fairy tale.

[Pastor of Muppets]

Ah that sounds like some good summers!
We have some really atmospheric ruins all over Scotland when the weather's just right, and the mountainous regions are spectacular in any weather.

Excellent, I've been a fan since high-school pretty much.
Not familiar with the other two authors but I'll certainly look into that series. ^__^

[Expendable]

The first book is from 1978 and is titled, "Another Fine MYTH" - The wizard Garkin decides to teach his young apprentice Skeeve a lesson by summoning a demon - only in the middle of the conjuring, an assassin strikes, killing the wizard but the wizard also gets him - leaving the shocked apprentice the only other living thing in the room with the demon. But the demon Aahz, despite his green scaly appearance, is actually an old friend of the wizard - they take turns scarring each other's apprentices, and along the way, playing practical jokes on each other. Only Garkin has really done a doozy of a prank on Aahz - and the assassin's partners are not far behind.

[Expendable]

So spent a good part of my weekend working on a virtual bunk bed in Sketchup. The idea is to have a free-standing unit that is tall enough for someone to sit up in the bed, but with features.

[Lord Myne]

I only read a short story about Disc world. I enjoyed it to. Wonder why I never read any of the books? I probably should and the other books you mentioned. They sound like they would be good reads.

[Expendable]

They're light fantasy comedy, so a fun read. I really do like John Moore's twisted take on the fairy tales. If you can find it, try Bad Prince Charlie (the prince has no love of expensive coffee houses) or Heroics for Beginners (Evil genius interrupts prince's marriage plans, so the prince borrows a book from the king's library), perhaps The Unhandsome Prince (Real disappointing after kissing most of the frogs in the swamp before you find him and he's not a looker).

But I like the Slay and Rescue concept. Would make for a great role play.

[Lord Myne]

Going to look into it and read them.

But an author I like that throws special spins on fairy tales is Jim C. Hines. For instance his 'Princess Novels' series has a twist on what happened to some well known disney princesses, originally fairy tail. The endings weren't so happy as they appeared to be.