...I don't know why I'm even back here...Sure the memories were rather enjoyable, but compared to my mental state now and how I used to write is quite embarrassing. It's been about half a decade and I still haven't gotten my life together. I keep getting the curve ball; piss-ant cops wanting to give me tickets, cramming for my tests, co-workers and customers acting like total shitheads, and me not making any better on myself! Like they say, you can become your own worst enemy.
I've been drinking more often now, but despite what they say in AA, admitting the problem isn't the real first step. The real first step is to STOP DRINKING and to keep it up...I haven't been very good at either step. But I'm not doing what most do like get behind the wheel or get into fights, just sitting at home, alone, contemplating...
Work is work. Still the same shitty people come in and out and the managers now have us coming in 2 hours before we even open so it's nearly a 12 hour shift every day. I might have to say goodbye to any New Year Eve plans if I have to leave for work at 7 the next day...Or maybe I could just make up some bull that I'll be coming in late. The world won't stop turning on my account...
...For those of you who are still on here and remember little ol' damaged me....Hi!<3...and I'm sorry. Though I probably can't apologize enough. You may wish me dead or that you never knew me. Lord knows I wish it too. I'm no prize, barely even a treat in your cereal box. And even after all this time, I still feel like that miserable child with delusions...
Beneath this 'pretty-boy' exterior lies a complete lack of character.
"Then I ram my ovapositer down your throat and lay my eggs in your chest. But I'm not an alien."
"Boil up the Mountain Dew. It's gonna be a loooong night."
I HATE TEXAS WEATHER!!!! THis fluxing climate has given me a cold that feels like I have a balloon shuoved up my nostrils, ever inflating. I'm taking lke, 4 different meds to help but i guess that was abad choice because now im just wandering around the house trying to remember what i was gonna do before i blew the thought out my nose X.x ...I gotta move somewhere where this is no climate....
I attempt to get back into RP, but I feel like I've-no-this site has changed since last time. There's more sex, which may not be a bad thing, but it kinda holds back the creativity. Oh sure, put it in a "hidden" spoiler tab that makes no difference...Can't believe I'm typing this, but in my day if things got hot and heavy you switch to PM, not make pages of porn and wonder why no one else is talking to each other. And the school RPs; I was in school, or at least high school, when I joined this site and care not to repeat those awkward years.
I have to admit, I do appreciate who I've become now...
Hi! I noticed you're also an old member. Did you always go by this username? There are times when I miss RPing as well, were you around when CS had the strip club RP? xD Ah the memories!
Anywho hope everything is going well for you and if you ever feel like reminiscing, I'll drop in again sometime. ^_^
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